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So wake me up when it's all over

When I'm wiser and I'm older

All this time I was finding myself, and I

Didn't know I was lost

Yeah yg barusan adalah sebagian dari lirik lagu Wake Me Up – Avicii, lagu yg lg sering banget gue puter belakangan ini. Gue uas dari tgl 13 kemaren, tiap belajar selalu sambil denger lagu ini, nambah mood aja gitu biar ga ngantuk ama boring belajarnya :p 

Pertama2 gue mau cerita dulu apa yg gue lakuin dan apa yg terjadi pada tgl 16 Januari 2014. Tadi pagi gue bangun jam setengah 6 kurang buat solat subuh sama belajar neuropsikologi yg bakal ujian jam 14.00, gue belajar sembari bolak-balik buku neuronya yg merupakan karangan dosen gue sendiri. Gue pelajari bab pertama sampai terakhir, ngga terlalu berat karna gue tinggal mengulang kembali apa yg selama ini gue pelajari. Jam setengah 8 gue nyalain laptop buat buka slide power point yg dari awal perkuliahan neuro gue kumpulin, ppt kiriman dari dosen gue yg totalnya setelah dikumpul ada 12 ppt….1 ppt ada yg 46, 52, bahkan 76 slides ohh yeaahhh :””) Dan oke gue hanya mempelajari bagian2 yg mendasar dan pentingnya aja, gue ga sanggup mempelajari secara keseluruhan karna gue bukan anak kedokteran :”” Sumpah ngantuk banget pas belajar karna gue emang kurang tidur dari kemaren, kemaren gue cuma tidur 3 jam demi psi. pembelajaran, tadi malem 5 jam..zombieee o_O 

Usaha gue sampe tidur cuma 3 jam ga sia2, kemaren gue bisa ngerjain dengan lancarr, insya Allah hasilnya memuaskan aminn. Well kembali ke tgl 16 januari, pas jam 11 stop belajar trus makan deh trus mandi sama zuhur, jam setengah 1 siang gue baru jalan, di mobil gue baca2 lg buku karangan dosen tercintahh :” Jalanan lancarr broo jam setengah 2 kurang gue udah sampe kampus. Trus gue langsung cuss ke lift, padahal sih mau ke lantai 6 karna ruangannya disitu tapi lift yg gue naikkin gamau berenti di lt 6, alhasil gue turun di lt 7. Lantai 7 sepi sih enak, gue sekalian ke toilet dulu deh taunya gue ketemu senior gue kak Cuni, disusul Nadia Prilia jg ke toilet yak jadilah kita belajar bareng dulu lantai 7, trus ada Nadia Edelina jg haha. 10 menit sebelum ujian kita beranjak ke lantai 6, buseeetttttt rame amaattt ini lantai 6, untung gue tadi ngga ke lt 6 dulu -_- 

Setelah liat posisi duduk yg ditempel di jendela, gue masuk ruang ujian, ternyata depan gue kak Cuni dan belakang gue Elsa. Jam 14.00 pengawas masuk ke ruangan dan ujian pun dimulai, gue ga kenal sama pengawas gue ini. Gue mengerjakan dengan santai walau gue akui soalnya ngga mudah2 amat. Jam setengah 3 lewat udh ada yg selesai trus keluar, gue entah masih berkutat di nomor berapa tau. Gue selesai ngerjain jam 15.00 haha dan gue langsung cabut dr kampuss trus ketemu bokap deh pulang bareng. 

Karna udh sore lalu lintas pun mulai padat, pas di lampu merah pertigaan jatinegara arah pasar enjo ada mobil dari sebelah kiri ga sabaran amat sampe bikin lecet mobilnya sendiri. Jadi gue lg berenti disitu mau belok kanan cuma posisinya agak kekiri gitu karna yg kanan panjangg bangett, bokap udah ngasi jalan sih buat jalur sebelah kiri karna yg belok kiri boleh langsung cuma posisinya sempit, nah mobil yg ga sabaran itu maksa masuk sampe gue masukkin kedalam spion kirinya tapi ya tetep aja kena spion dia ama gue, dan saat bersenggolan itu orang tetep jalan dengan “pede-nya” seraya ngga peduli dengan lecetnya spion dia sendiri, kalo spion gue udh beberapa kali kena spion motor tp lecetnya msh dikitlah, jarang kena spion mobil huft asli itu orang ngga banget se-ngga bangetnya soal uas linbud senin kemaren hiks :’( Pas lewat kawasan bkt hujan mulai turun dan semakin deras, sekitar jam setengah 5 kurang gue sampe rumah. By the way saking lg absurdnya diri gue, gue sampe ngomongin hal yg ngga penting banget ke bokap, “Pah, ada cicak tuh diatas” sumpah asli ngga penting banget omongan lo seellll -____- 

Sebenernya di 16 januari 2014 itu temen gue ada yg ulang tahun ke-21, tapi sampe sekarang gue belum ucapin ke dia, entah segan entah ragu entah gue ngga yakin entah….Yowiisss ngucapin selamat ke diri sendiri aja karna sekarang usia gue jadi 20 tahun 3 bulan ha-ha-ha ketawa pliss -_- Dari minggu sebelumnya gue udah niat pengen ngucapin selamet secara langsung loh tapi begini akhirnya. Jadi gue ngerasa kalo hubungan pertemanan gue ama temen gue ini lg kurang baik. Padahal pas awal masuk kampus setelah libur thn baru kemaren kita masih bae2 aja bahkan sangat baik, kita saling bantu satu sama lain. Jumat kemaren pun kita masih nonton film bareng di laptop temen dia, film komedi gitu gue sama doi ketawa2 di kelas, sekitar jam 11 sampe jam 12 kita nonton di kelas kita yg dosennya cuma masuk bentar trus cabut lg dan kelasnya sepi. Selesai nonton pun dia ingetin gue buat absen pak nyoman sambil nyuruh nanyain nanti tanya pak nyoman jam 1 ngajar atau ngga, ya gue jawab ngga mungkin karna pak nyoman udah ngga ngajar lg haha setelah itu gue sama dia pisah. Tanpa sengaja sekitar jam setengah 2 kurang kita ketemu lg pas mau pulang tepatnya depan Capitol Park Salemba, kayaknya sih dia agak heran bisa ketemu gue lg, kita jalan berdua ke halte busway, doi sambil ngeluh cuaca panas bangetlah, trus ngomongin jadwal uas lntel, sama berapa jam dia kalo dr rumah ke kampus, sepintas asik2 aja dan ga ada masalah kan ya ? Ngga berasa kita udh sampe di loket, kami disambut dengan antrian penumpang yg cukup padat hohoo, gue lg bengong mau ngantri dimana, doi langsung antri ke pintu antrian ketiga alias belakang dan gue stay antri di pintu tengah, ngga lama busway arah melayu dateng dan doi langsung naek tanpa pamit atau apa kek gitu huftt kalo gue sih ngga naik yg itu soalnya penuh..gue pun lama di halte sembari mikir sikap dingin temen gue itu, karna gue sendiri ngga biasa kalo ga pamit sama temen gue lainnya kalo mau duluan atau mau pisah :/ 

Cerita masih di hr jumat tgl 10 januari yaa. Dari kejauhan gue liat si Linda jalan mau ke arah halte, doi sambil senyam senyum liatin guee. Beberapa menit kemudian Linda sampe di halte ngasi jadwal uas gue trus nanya, “Lo ngga bareng sama si itu pulangnya ?”, gue jawab “Kagak orang dia langsung naek tanpa pamit sama gue”, Linda bilang “Lah masa sel ? gue kira lo udah di busway bareng dia blablabla~”. Gue cerita ama Linda kalo temen gue dingin sama gue dan gue agak bete dan bla dan bla, trus gue ama Linda naek busway yg sama deh. Sekarang kita ke tgl 13 januari 2014, hari yg hujannya parah sama macet parah itu lohhh, uas hari pertama ada pengembangan diri sama lintas budaya (pengen banget rasanya gue sebut lintah buaya, ya apalah ngga nyambung juga). Pas ujian pengembangan diri gue sekelas ama temen gue yg cuek pas jumat itu, doi telat datengnya trus begitu masuk ruang ujian doi langsung taruh tasnya sebelah tas gue di depan kelas karna semua tas emang harus ditaruh depan kelas saat ujian. Trus doi lewat depan gue yg lg berkutat dgn soal2 buat duduk di bangku belakang deket jendela. Jam setengah 11 gue selesai ujian duluan daripada dia trus gue ambil tas gue dan keluar ruangan. Gue, Linda sama Claudia duduk depan pintu kelas sambil cerita ini itu, especially kecemasan gue terhadap lintas budaya karna gue ngga belajar sama sekali dan gue pikir juga ga guna belajar karna pemikiran orang yg bikin soal itu bener2 ngga bisa ditebak, sering banget soalnya melenceng dr materi kayak uts dan ujian sebelum2nya. Dosen gue sendiri juga jarang masuk dan ngga jelas ngajarnya makanya gue tambah males buat belajar.

Trus gue dikasih dikasih permen karet ama Claudia, lumayan biar ngga stress2 amat gue :/ Lalu temen gue yg cuek itu keluar ruangan karna udh selesai ujian, si Claudia blg “Nah si itu keluar tuh”, well dia ngga negur gue sama sekali seraya gue itu patung yg tak patut untuk dianggap…Yaudah biarin aja gue pikir, mending gue siapin mental buat menghadapi uas selanjutnya yakni lintas budaya. Kali ini gue kagak sekelas ama doi. Sesuai bayangan gue soal lintas budaya saat itu sangat teramat sulit bagi gue, berasa digigit lintah buat dihisap darahnya plus digigit buaya maka dari itu diawal gue sebut “lintah buaya” :’( Dan perlu lo tau kalo selama ujian itu gue sambil ngunyah permen karet, itu pertama kalinya gue ujian sambil makan permen karet, sesekali gue bikin balon kecil2 :p Jam 12 gue keluar ruangan, entah harus seneng atau sedih, seneng karna akhirnya terbebas dari soal2 kampret itu dan sedih kalo inget hasil akhir matkul itu gimanaa :”” Mana pas keluar kelas gue nyari2 Linda ama Claudia kagak ada lg ehh malah ga sengaja ketemu temen gue si cuek itu, dan tetep ya doi ngga negur gue malah nyamperin yg laen huft huft huft yaudah gue jg diem aja sembari jalan ke toilet. Trus Linda bbm gue blg dia lg di lobby dan gue pun ke lobby, Linda mau fotokopi materi psi. pembelajaran yg gue dapet fotokopiannya jumat kemaren, dan perlu lo tau ya kalo yg fotokopiin buat gue itu temen gue, si cuek :’)

Setelah gue ama Claudia temenin Linda fotokopi, kita ke kantin buat makan siang. Whaat thee heelll ?!?!?! Ada si cuek di kantin ! Padahal gue lg males ketemu diaa zzzzzzz kenapa sih gue sering ketemu sama dia secara ga sengaja :/ Gue sih stay cool aja lewat samping dia yg lg makan sama temen2nya, gue liat dia dari ujung doi ketawa2 gitu dan bener2 ngga peduli sama kehadiran gue. Okesip gue pesen makanan trus dibungkus biar cepet2 cabut darisitu karena gue udah ma-les, setelah itu gue ga ketemu dia lg di hr itu. Oh ya satu lg, saat di kantin gue masih tetep ngunyah permen karet ! Disitu gue baru puas bikin balon gede2 -,- Andai muncul bulan dan bintang di langit dengan indah saat siang itu, pasti gue happy to the max ! Terkadang dimalam hari saat cerah, dengan memandang bulan dan bintang gue bisa lupain problem hidup gue sejenak. I love moon, I love stars ;) Lanjut ke tgl 15 januari 2014, uas psi. pembelajaran. Gue inget pas uts, si cuek duduknya pas dibelakang gue jadi gue pikir pas uas pun demikian. Asli gue takut jadi ngga mood ngerjain ujian kalo dia duduk dibelakang gue…nyatanya doi ngga duduk di belakang gue, jauh gitu ujung sama ujung huft baguslah jadi mood gue tetep stabil, karna pasti bakal ngebetein banget itu selama di kelas kalo gue didepan dia. Dan lagi2 gue selesai duluan daripada dia, trus gue keluar dan duduk deket ruang ujiannya Linda yg persis depan ruang gue ujian tadi, disitu gue samperin Vira dan ngomongin perihal ujian itu sambil minum minuman favorit gue, kopiko 78`C. Ngga lama si cuek keluar kelas tanpa negur gue pas lewat depan gue sama Vira, gayanya itu loh sok buru2 ke lift ha-ha setelah itu gue ngobrol2 ama temen2 yg laen yg baru pada kelar ujian, ada yg curhat Cuma belajar 2 tokoh, ada yg lupa materi pas uts, ada yg nyontek saat pengawas lengah, ada yg ngomongin kemelut “lintas budaya” juga :’) dll. Finally gue keluar dari kampus bareng Linda~ 

Inti dari problem ini apa ? Intinya gue ngga ngerti sama sikap temen gue itu. Gue gatau kesalahan gue dimana. Gue ngerasa ngga ada salah apa2 sama dia, dia juga ngga ngomong apa2 mengenai kesalahan ataupun mungkin ada hal yg bikin dia ngga comfort sama gue. Setelah ini gue bakal jarang ketemu dia karna udh ga ada ujian yg seruangan lg, biarlah toh gue udah instropeksi diri gue ada salah apa ngga tapi gue tetep ngga nemuin. Oh ya gue ada uas lg tgl 21, lumayan libur 4 hari. Setelah itu ada tgl 23 dan terakhir tgl 27. Sebenernya gue nulis blog ini tadi malem dari jam 11 sampe setengah 2 pagi tapi ya baru sempet gue post sekarang gegara internet gue lg trouble banget semalem, so gue save dulu di Ms. Word. Semalem gue baru tidur jam 3 setelah ngemil, nonton tv, & sikat gigi haha. Makasih buat yg udh baca dari awal sampe akhir, anda luar biasaa hahaha :p

Akhirnya sampai juga di pertengahan kuliah program Strata 1, awal dari tingkat 3 yakni Semester Lima :))

sampai saat ini gue belom bayaran apalagi nyusun jadwal, padahal penutupan pembayaran & krs online tgl 30 Agustus 2013 but santai aja sih temen gue dari jaman semester 2 pun udh ada beberapa yg nekat bayar + nyusun di hari awal2 kuliah..yg penting sanggup bayar..itu aja sih.

cuma gue sendiri pun gamau bayaran ama nyusun ngaret2 gitu, secara ga bisa bebas ambil kelasnya..kalo makin mundur ya makin banyak pula yg udh nyusun jadi banyak kelas yg udh penuh and lo mau gamau dapet kelasnya "sisaan".

Okelah gue belum bayaran tapi tentunya udh tau dong matkul apa yg harus diambil hehehe.

berdasar ip sem 4 kemaren gue berkesempatan ambil 21 sks di sem 5, kalo yg anak yai pasti tau lah harus dengan ip antara berapa sampe berapa untuk bisa ambil sks segitu :')

gausah ditanya lah ip gue berapa..intinya naik dari sem yg kemaren a.k.a sem 3 :p :p

sebenernya sedikit kecewa ga bisa ambil 24 sks karna target gue ya 24 sks, apalagi setelah tau matkul yg bikin ip gue dibawah target itu adalah 2 matkul yg pas uas sama2 melenceng dari materi yg selama ini dipelajari, pas uas gue berasa ngerjain teka teki tau ngga sih :" yg satu katanya dari materi sem 6, kalo yg satu lg itu jauh lebih mendalami tapi banyak yg belum diajarin zzzz

Fyi di kampus gue sebenernya ada sp alias semester pendek tapi itu pun nunggu kuota misal harus ada 20 atau 25 orang dulu, kalo ga sampe segitu ya ga bakal diadain sp nya, peminat sp di fak. psikologi kampus gue dikit maka dari itu jangan berharap banyak bisa ambil es-pe.

target yg dulunya bisa lulus 3,5 tahun geser menjadi 4 tahun..plis banget JANGAN GESER LAGI

walau demikian gue cukup seneng pernah bisa ngerasain ambil matkul 24 sks saat semester 2, matkul nya wajib semua coyy gue hajar semua, gatau karna terlalu berat atau apa ada satu matkul yg C sih di sem 2 itu..sisanya B semua tanpa A..ahh :')

Lupakan sem 2 yg "imut2" dan mari kita bahas kembali sem 5 yang.....haha isi sendiri deh.

*btw gue laper, ambil makanan dulu bentar :|*

nih udh gue ambil makan malemnya, sederhana tapi enak : nasi + ikan tongkol dicabein + sayur lodeh + sambel yg kayaknya kebanyakkan gue ambilnya.. mau ? mau ?? yuk gue lanjutin lg sambil makan~

Berbeda dengan 2 semester sebelumnya, kalo yg biasanya gue ambil 20 sks + buang 1 sks kali ini berencana full ambil 21 sks, pas soalnya.

Rencananya ada 9 mata kuliah yg mau gue ambil, apa sajakah itu ???

21 sks kan jumlah semuanya ?? Hahaha :"""

Gimana pendapat kalian setelah melihat matkul yg gue ambil ? asli gue rada ngeri ama matkul2 ini, especially nomor 1 - 6..why ??

gue ga begitu tau sih matkul no. 1 kayak gimana cuma denger2 sih katanya susah.."katanya" haha tapi mari kita gunakan prinsip "Mana tau kalau belum dicoba" dan "Tidak ada yg sulit, sulit hanya sugesti dirimu sendiri"..di sem 5 ini gue harus sering2 menerapkan 2 prinsip vital orang sukses ini guyss :|

kalo matkul no. 2 & 3 lo harus cari "OP" alias objek penelitian, biasanya sih dari junior buat di wawancara ama tes intelegensinya, dan ini nantinya ada praktek di lab gitu..itu doang yg gue tau.

matkul no. 4 ini macem teknik sipil aja ya kata2nya :" ada hitungannya pula..gue suka itungan asal ga ribet dan aneh2 :| moga2 ga sesulit yg gue bayangkan..

matkul no. 5 & 6 adalah matkul penjurusan mayor gue..psi klinis..yg no 5 ga begitu tau tapi kalo no. 6 katanya tentang biologi syaraf2 dll gitu, yg pasti lebih sulit dari psi faal..faal gue dulu dapet B..alhamdulillah, semoga 2 matkul penjurusan ini minimal B juga yak amiinnn.

Jujur matkul sem 5 berat2..ngga hanya sekedar hafalan yg masih bisa dipikir pake logika kayak di semester2 sebelumnya..

tapi seberat apapun harus tetap gue jalani dan dilewati sebaik mungkin, harus ingat 2 prinsip tadi, ngga maen2 lg, jauh2 dari yg namanya "stressor", belajar lebih giat, lebih diperbanyak baca buku2 kuliah, gempur abis2an saat uas..dan satu lg yg terpenting "berdoa"..hasil akan kurang maksimal jika lo udah berusaha semaksimal mungkin tapi tanpa diiringi berdoa :)) *ciee bijak*

kalimat mulai dari kata "tapi" sampai "berdoa :))" barusan ngga buat gue aja sih..buat elo2 juga yg akan siap2 menempuh semester yg baru ;)

karna sem 5 lumayan berat maka gue harus bisa jernihin ama fresh-in otak gue sefresh2nya, sisa libur sebulanan ini harus dimanfaatkan sebaik2nya.

Segitu aja deh curhatan gue mengenai semester 5 yg akan gue lewati nanti~

Trims buat orang2 yg udah dukung dari dulu sampai sekarang..

Trims juga buat yg udh baca..good luck for you !

Malam takbir gue cuma keluar bentar ama kakak gue yg item buat nyari makan tapi ga depet karna pada tutup..keluar cuma buat isi bensin doi doang -,- ya akhirnya gue balik lg ke rumah dan cuma bikin mie ama telor ceplok..sederhana tapi biarlah yg penting makan. Lucunya di malam ini ada kejadian yg bisa dibilang udah beberapa kali terjadi, berhubungan dengan stressor sih tapi ga bisa gue beberin disini haha. Sesekali gue keluar rumah buat liat kembang api sambil denger gema takbir hihi pas udah jam 12 abis bilas creambath dan maskeran gue buka laptop dan online sampe jam setengah 2an, namanya jg malem takbir wajarlah tidur larut. Esoknya di lebaran pertama ga bisa solat ied karna ya you know lah tamu bulanan, lalu berlanjut silaturahmi ke rumah tante di daerah cipete, jakarta selatan. nyampe sana jam 10 dan belum terlalu rame yg dateng..keluarga nyokap emang dari dulu ngumpulnya selalu disini kalo lebaran dll. mendekati jam 12 semakin rame yg dateng, bisa dibilang itu jam puncak keramaian halal bihalal kami, seperti biasa sih ya kalo lebaran pertanyaannya ga jauh2 dari kuliah, semester berapa, ip berapa, lancar ngga, punya pacar ga dll huft. Pas jam setengah 2an tamu2 mulai banyak yg pulang, ada juga yg lanjut silaturahmi ke tempat lain but gue masih pewe disitu sampe sore..ngantuk pula tapi males pulang ke rumah padahal udah ujan deres tapi ga masalah lah. Keasikkan wi-fi an juga sampe bokap akhirnya nyuruh pulang..ya sekitar jam 5 lewat baru deh gue pulang dari situ, ujan udah berenti tapi langit masih gelap..di rumah itu jg udah sepi..di tengah jalan ujan deres turun lg pas di pancoran..sumpah ganggu pandangan banget saking deresnya trus jadi macet karna rata2 jalannya pada pelan. Sampe pas mau masuk tol cikampek macet makin parah dan ga gerak, akhirnya ga jadi lewat tol melainkan lewat cawang trus kalimalang..sesuai dugaan gue ga macet kalo lewat situ. Jam 6 lewat baru deh sampe rumah yeahh ngantuk banget karna kurang tidur pula jadi tidur agak cepet, besoknya udh harus jalan lg. Yg patut disyukuri di hari ini adalah jumlah THR yg lebih banyak dari taun lalu yeahh maybe sebagai upah dari ujian yg sudah dilewati di bln ramadhan tahun ini, makanya lebih besar juga☺ Berikut suasana lebaran di hari pertama..

Paginya gue bangun kesiangan yakni jam setengah 9 lewat..padahal bokap udh janjian ama om gue buat jalan jam 9 biar dapet parkir enak dan bisa solat jumat..let's rock and roll karna udh telat dan ujung2nya baru jalan jam setengah 11. Sampe disana sekitar jam 11.15an haha, lebaran kedua ngumpulnya di rumah kakaknya kakek di daerah Iskandarsyah, jakarta selatan. Seperti dugaan gue, udah rame yg dateng dan sudah mendekati jam "teramai" di acara tersebut. Pas udah mau jam 12 yg cowo2 pada cabut ke mesjid deket situ ya sisanya tinggal cewe2 deh..seperti ini suasana saat itu

Just info aja, di keluarga bokap dari dulu banget ga ada tradisi bagi2 THR jadi jangan berharap kalo kumpul di keluarga ini ya, cukup berharap dari bokap aja :') Sekitar jam setengah 2 kurang gue cabut ke daerah Tangerang buat silaturahmi ketiga, kali ini dari keluarga nenek, ngga serame sebelumnya sih karna bukan tempat khusus buat halal bihalal, jujur gue udah lama banget ga maen ke daerah tangerang haha seru deh jalan2nya di hari kedua lebaran ini..dapet kenalan baru juga, cewe kok :) Dua hari lebaran yg cukup menyenangkan karna menikmati suasana dan pengalaman baru sekaligus menjauhi diri dari stressor, apa kabarmu stressor ? Lebaran kali ini bener2 jauh ya kita haha, dari kemaren2 gue emang terus berusaha buat ga kepikiran ama stressor alhasil lumayan, beban pikiran gue jadi berkurang, ga kayak dulu..suram :p Bagaimana kelanjutan kedepannya ? Apakah stressor akan menghilang begitu saja atau akan tetap berlanjut ? Hanya Tuhan yg tahu..

Yak bertemu lg dengan saya setelah 3 bulan lamanya.

hari ini tgl 5 agustus 2013, berarti 3 hari menjelang hari raya. udah siap guys ? siap ngga siap harus siap lah yaa :)

sepertinya lebaran tahun ini ga jauh beda ama tahun lalu, lebaran hari pertama yakni dari keluarga besar nyokap dirayain di cipete (always), dan lebaran hari kedua dari keluarga besar bokap di daerah jakarta selatan juga cuma kurang tau daerah mana karna biasanya di pramuka..tapi sejak taun 2012 pindah ke daerah jaksel itu..sekarang gue mau cerita soal ramadhan taun ini.

Yg berubah di ramadhan taun ini sama taun lalu:

1. uas hari pertama di hari pertama ramadhan, taun lalu udah full libur

2. puasa bolong diawal dan diakhir, taun lalu di tengah2 jd sekarang lebih banyak deh bolongnya

3. beban psikis dan fisik jauh lebih berat, ya yg biasanya ga mikirin urusan kuliah mau ngga mau harus mikirin uas, belajar tengah malem, kurang tidur, maksain belajar padahal mood bener2 ga bersahabat (hanya saya dan Tuhan yg tau kenapanya), dan stressor2 lain yg bener2 mengganggu pikiran huft

4. suasana jauh lebih sejuk karna musim hujan blum berakhir guys, ga kayak taun lalu kering kerontang

5. kali ini harus ada (lagi) family yg meninggal tahun ini, di hari ke 20 puasa, taun lalu kalo ga salah ga ada, tapi taun2 sebelumnya suka ada yaa mungkin udah jalannya harus begini

6. bisa buka bareng bestie sma, taun lalu ga ada apa ga ikut gitu lupa deh

7. puasa taun ini ditemenin sailor moon di tv yeyy, asli gue kangen banget ama kartun ini

8. "stressor" yg udah berkembang dari taun lalu benar2 mencapai puncaknya di bulan ramadhan ini, you know ?? sampe sekarang gue terus berusaha menyelesaikan masalah gue yg ini tapi terus ketunda entah udah berapa puluh kali, itupun karna si stressor yg nunda, bukan karna gue dan belakangan ini gue bener2 udah mencapai titik jenuh dari stressor ini. hari ini rasanya gue pengen nyerah aja..stressor ini udah nunjukkin "rasa ngga bersahabatnya"..selama ini gue bertahan karna masalahnya kalo gue nyerah pun itu sulit hmm. gatau lah yg jelas gue udah cape selama 17 bulan ngadepin stressor yg makin lama makin jadi ini..terus terang aja ini udah menghambat perkembangan gue dalam bidang *sensor* :( jahat ya sumpah si stressor ini, ga pernah bisa ngertiin gue gitu maunya dimengerti mulu..egois. yg tadinya mau menghadapi masalah jadi pengen menghindar aja dan pengen ngilang dari peredaran si stressor yg ga penting itu. padahal gue udah sabar banget loh ngadepinnya tapi yaa tetep aja ga ada titik terang, selalu aja nemuin jalan buntu. kalo ada yg mau disalahin ya salahin stressornya yg terus menghindar agar masalah bisa cepat selesai. kalo lo jadi gue bakal nyerah atau lanjut ? jujur saat ini gue sih masih ragu jawabnya..

Intinya sih gue ngerasa ramadhan taun ini lebih berat ujian2 yg harus dilewatinnya. rasanya gue pengen buka lembaran baru tanpa hal2 yg memicu stress dalam diri gue, entah kapan gue mampu membukanya..sebenernya ujian2 ini ngga lain adalah proses pendewasaan diri juga sebelum berusia 20 broo maklum biar matang lah mentalnya haha ga berasa gue ngeblog sampe udah ganti hari ke hari selasa yap 2 hari lg lebaran ! plis banget ya jauhin diri lo dari yg namanya "stressor" saat lebaran nanti supaya lo bisa ngerayainnya dengan penuh suka cita :D kalo perlu jadiin deh tuh hari lebaran sebagai hari tanpa stressor :p

"Stressor ? please, you are not important !" ---> inget trus kata2 ini biar bisa kabur dari stressor haha

Finally setelah oktober 2011 gue buka lg ini blog dan bisa ngepos lg. Jujur gue seneng banget :') Gue lupa email blog ini apa selama hampir 1 setengah tahun lamanya haha tapi passwordnya inget..loh kok bisa ? Soalnya email buat ini blog laen sendiri dari semua socmed yg gue punya alhasil ya gue lupa ama emailnya :| Tapi hari ini gue penasaran banget pengen buka blog ini sampai berhasil, gue coba masuk pake 2 email yg sering gue pake ga bisa2 karna bukan itu emailnya. Setelah gue buka fb bag website disitu gue baru inget email yg gue pake buat blog ini apa, ternyata berhubungan dengan angka 16 ! Yapp tanggal lahir gue. Alhasil gue coba masuk pake email itu dan.. berhasil ! Blog gue berhasil dibuka yuhuu~ Postingan terakhir di blog ini tentang english psychology, buat tugas matkul b. inggris pas masih sem 1 dulu hahah, postingan blognya masih dikit banget padahal umur blog ini udah 3 setengah tahun..ya wajar aja orang gue jarang maen blog -___- Dan sekarang gue bingung mau ngepos apaan :| Settingan blog yg sekarang berubah banget ya jadi bingung..yaudah deh mau coba otak atik dulu biar rapih ! hehe

UNIT 1

PSYCHOLOGY AT A GLANCE

1. Studies : learn (belajar)

2. Human : people (manusia)

3. Behavior : habbit (tingkah laku)

4. Investigating : researching (penyelidikan)

5. See : look (melihat)

6. Groups : team (kelompok)

7. Attention : warning (perhatian)

8. End : finish (akhir)

9. Shall : will (akan)

10. Same : similar (sama)

11. General : public (umum)

12. Still : yet (masih)

13. Defined : mean (arti)

14. Only : just (hanya)

15. Speaking : talking (berbicara)

16. Matter : trouble (masalah)

17. Carrying : bring (membawa)

18. Also : too (juga)

19. Happy : glad (senang)

20. Sad : gloomy (sedih)

UNIT 2

SIGMUND FREUD (1856-1939)

1. Lecture : speech (ceramah)

2. Fascinated : interested (tertarik)

3. Diseases : ailment (penyakit)

4. Returned : back (kembali)

5. Great : remarkable (hebat)

6. Needs : require (membutuhkan)

7. Pleasure : happy (senang)

8. Infancy : childhood (masa kecil)

9. Acquire : get (mendapat)

10. Teaching : instruct (pengajaran)

11. Opposite : antonym (berlawanan)

12. Treatment : cure (pengobatan)

13. Method : process (cara)

14. Problems : matters (masalah)

15. Collection : set (koleksi)

16. Dreams : imagine (mimpi)

17. Unconscious : comatose (tidak sadar)

18. Guidance : leadership (bimbingan)

19. Unusual : strange (aneh)

20. Around : surrounding (sekitar)

UNIT 4

ON BEING SHY

1. Many : much (banyak )

2. Felt : feel (rasa)

3. Shy : ashamed (malu)

4. Afraid : scared (takut)

5. Smart : clever (pintar)

6. Wish : hope (harapan)

7. Inferior : lesser (rendah diri)

8. Large : big (besar)

9. Rid : free (bebas)

10. Qualities : characters (kualitas)

11. Perhaps : maybe (mungkin)

12. Small : little (kecil)

13. Starting : beginning (memulai)

14. Getting : receiving (mendapat)

15. Jewelry : charms (perhiasan)

16. Effort : try (coba)

17. Happen : accured (terjadi)

18. Expressing : showing (menunjukkan)

19. Developing : rising (berkembang)

20. Discussions : debate (diskusi)

UNIT 5

CHILDHOOD DEPRESSION

1. Stealing : theft (mencuri)

2. Rarely : seldom (jarang)

3. Basic : foundation (dasar)

4. Tired : exhausted (lelah)

5. Ailments : disease (penyakit)

6. Guilty : culpable (bersalah)

7. Symptom : phenomenon (gejala)

8. Especially : foremost (terutama)

9. Adults : mature (dewasa)

10. Predisposition : tendency (kecenderungan)

11. Possible : maybe (mungkin)

12. Disturbed : bother (gangguan)

13. Complaint : criticism (kritikan)

14. Increase : swell (meningkat)

15. Harmless : dangerous (berbahaya)

16. Disorder : mess (kekacauan)

17. Separation : division (perpisahan)

18. Severe : cruel (kejam)

19. Able : can (dapat)

20. Vowed : promise (berjanji)

UNIT 1 ( PSYCHOLOGY AT GLANCE)

PSYHOCOLOGY AT A GLANCE

Psychology studies the activities of individual .The science of human

behaviors is actually a group of sciences .On one side we find psychology

investigating the organs and cells that do the work of the organism ,and the

other side we see the social sciences studying nations and groups of

mankind. There is room for a middle science that shall focus its attention on

the individual. That middle science is psychology. Psychology studies the

individual's activities through-out his span of life, from the beginning before

birth, up through the end of life .During this life history, the Man remains

the same individual, although his behavior shows continuity along whit

many changes. Psychology

Compares children and adults ,the normal and the abnormal and the human

and the animal. It is interested in the differences between one individual and

another, and still more interested, if possible, in the general laws of activity

including event of very different individuals-laws, for example, of growth

learning, thinking and emotion. Psychology can be defined as the science of

the individual's activities.

The word "activity" is used here in a broad sense .It includes not only

motor activities like walking and speaking but also cognitive (knowledgegetting)

activities like seeing ,hearing ,remembering ,thinking ,and other

emotional activities like laughing and crying, or feeling happy or sad. These

last may seem passive, because they are activities, for they depend on the

life of the organism .Any manifestation of life can be called an activity .No

matter how passive an individual may seem to himself in watching a game

or listening to music, he is really carrying on an activity. The only way to be

completely in active is to be dead.

Glossary

Behavior :tingkah laku

Attention : perhatian

Mankind : orang

Remains : tetap

Defined : diartikan, didefinisikan

Manifestation :perwujudan

EXERCISE 1

1.What is psychology?

Answer: Psychology is the social sciences studying nations and groups of mankind, especially of human behaviors.

2.Name some individual activities?

Answer: listening, writting, speaking, running

3.give examples of motor, cognitive, and emotional activities?

Answer: motor activities like walking and speaking

cognitive activities like seeing and hearing

emotional activities like feeling happy and sad

4. is listening music a kind of activity? Why? Why not?

Answer: Yes it's. because activities is includes not only motor activities and emotional activities but also cognitive activities. like hearing.

5. what is meant by: the science of human behavior actually a group of sciences?

6. when do we call an individual completely inactive?

Answer: The only way we call an individual completely inactive is to be dead

7. The word “activity” is used in a very broad sense what does it mean?

8. what kind of activity is happening with you when you write a letter for your girl/boyfriend?

Answer: Shy and happy

9. Why do we study human behavior?

Answer: Because it helps you understand and appreciate people more.

10. what causes the differences between individuals?

Answer: Because peoples behaviour is different from each and every one. they had developed different mentality the method their parents has given them a method. According to the climate only people habituated to develop their mentality is differently. that is why they defer from each and every one. First of each and every one has to motivate from the inner side then they had a growth

UNIT 2

SINGMUND FREUD (1856-1939)

Sigmund Freud was an Austrian doctor who explored the workings of

the human mind .He developed psychoanalysis, which is both a way treating

neurosis, or mental disturbances, and a theory of how the mind works.

Freud was born in Moravia, now part of Czechoslovakia. When he was

four, his family moved to Vienna, Austria. Freud entered the University of

Vienna when he was 17.One day he attended a lecture on nature. He was so

fascinated that he made up his mind to become a doctor.

Freud became interested in diseases of the mind. In 1885, he won a

fellowship to study in Paris under the guidance of a doctor, Jean Martin

Chariot, who was famous for his work on this kind of diseases. The next

year, Freud returned to Vienna, married, and began to treat diseases of the

mind.

Freud ha great insight into the human mind .He thought that every

person is born whit certain needs, he said, are unconscious - people are not a

ware of thinking a bout such needs. Freud named the part of mind

controlling these instinctive unconscious needs the id, and said that person's

id operates to give pleasure.

Freud also said that, as we grow up from infancy, we acquire an ego, a

collection of memories and thoughts that help us deal with the word around

us. We continue to grow, and from the teaching of our family and society,

we develop a superego- a conscience. Our superego and id often push in

opposite ways .Our ego usually reduces this conflict by helping us to get

pleasure without "hurting " our conscience.

But if a person unconscious thoughts and needs are very strong, they

may cause unusual behavior, or neurosis. Freud's treatment for neurosis is

psychoanalysis (examination of the mind), a method for uncovering these

unconscious thoughts and understanding how they cause problems, Freud

thoughts that dreams - even dreams that seem to make no sense- are a very

important clue to understanding the mind.

Glossary

Explore : menyelidiki

Neurosis : ganguan mental

Disturbances : gangguan

Fascinated : tertarik, terpesona

Diseases : penyakit

Fellowship : beasiswa

Insight : perhatian, wawasan

Unconscious : tidak sadar

Id : keinginan, nafsu

Ego : tindakan untuk mendapatkan keinginan

Superego : norma (yang mengontrol tindakan/ego)

Pleasure : kesenangan

Infancy : masa kecil

Acquire : mendapatkan

Uncovering : menemukan

Developed : membangun

Thought : berpikir

Lecturer : dosen

Exercise 1

Answer these following questions based on the above text,

1. When was Sigmund Freud born?

He was born in Moravia, now part of Czechoslovakia on 1856

2. How old did he die?

He died when he was 83 years old

3. What was he concerned whit?

He was concerned with explored the working of human mind

4. When did he join University? What major did he study?

When he was 17. The major he did study was a doctor ( diseases of mind )

5. Why did he want to be a doctor?

Because he was so fascinated that he made his mind up to become a doctor

6. Who is jean martin chariot?

Jean Martin, who was famous for his work on this kind of diseases

7. According to Freud, food and drink are unconscious needs .Why did he

say so?

Freud said food and drink are unconscious needs because every person is born with certain needs, he said, are unconscious-people are not aware of thinking about such needs. Freud named the part of mind controlling these instinctive unconscious need the id, and Freud said that person’s id operate to give pleasure.

8. These needs, he sad, are unconscious - people are no aware of thinking

about such needs. What does "dash" (-)" mean?

Explain what unconscious is

9. Mention the examples of conscious needs and don't forget to explain

each.

Nature is what we are consciously aware at certain times, such as direct sensing, memory, thoughts

10. What do id, ego, and superego mean? Explain by giving examples of

each?

Id = a wish or longing

EXAMPLE : an increase in hunger or thirst should produce an immediate attempt to eat or drink

superego = something which controlling an act.

EXAMPLE : warn and ban because the food was not hers, taking items that do not belong is not good or sinful.

Ego = an act to get desire.

EXAMPLE : started to organize themselves. His position became difficult, ego-driven id (lust) to satisfy immediate needs (eating food) in any way, while the super-ego forbade him to act because of its moral basis.

UNIT 4

ON BEING SHY

How I Wish I Weren't Shy !

Preview the topic

READING

How many times have you felt angry whit your self because you were too

shy to speak up when you really wanted to have to conversation whit others

person ? Are parties times for standing in the corner and watching others

chat and dance - afraid to join them ? Do you listen to discussions but do

not give your opinions because you think you are not smart enough ? Do

you WIsh you be friendly but don't know how? All these thoughts lead to

unhappy feelings.

This kind of unhappiness comes about not because other people are

trying to hurt us. We make this unhappiness for ourselves . Naturally we

really don't to hurt ourselves, but often we group up thinking we are not as

good as others- we are inferior; everyone is better, smarter, and more

interesting. These negative thoughts make us shy . Why do we do this to

ourselves? Only a psychologist can discover the reasons . It is interesting to

note that very large numbers of people are shy. There is , however good

news . If we want to get rid of shyness , it can be done.

We can help ourselves be rid of shyness. Nobody is perfect and

everybody has good qualities. Is it fair to pay attention to our imperfections

and overlook our good qualities ? Definitely not! The following suggestions

may be helpful in reducing shyness:

1. First, understand that you cannot eliminate shyness overnight. It is a

slow process that you must work in gradually .

2. Think about situations when being shy is most painful. Perhaps your

biggest problem is making small talk with a stranger at a party . In that

case , prepare yourself whit some interesting current news to talk about

The weather is a topic often used for starting conversations.

3. Getting the other person to talk about himself/ herself is a clever idea.

Many people enjoy talking about themselves - or giving their opinions.

For example, you can say something like, "I notice you like modern

jewelry; your rings are very unusual. Did you design them yourself?"

This can be the start of a friendship.

4. Whenever you begin making negative comparisons between yourself

and others , force yourself to stop doing that immediately . Take your

thoughts of yourself. Observe others and think of a compliment with

which to start a conversation with someone.

5. If you are shy at work where there are many coworkers, choose the

least intimidating person to the perhaps have coffee with or make casual small talk with.

6. Knows that if in effort to socialize sometimes is unsuccessful, it

happens to everyone now and then. Feel proud of yourself for making the

effort.

7. If you are required to give a report to a group, tell them that you feel

nervous. This feeling is quite natural , and everyone can sympathize.

Expressing that the group will make you feel better.

8. Think about your good qualities and believe that you are as good as

anyone else .... Because you are!

9. Take a course in developing self- confidence or read books on the

subject.

Life is much more enjoyable for people who are not shy.

Exercise 1

1. Is it difficult for you to ask strangers for the directions or information ?

Answer : No, because if we need some information or direction, we don’t be shy to ask strangers the information or direction.

2. Do you let others make decision for you because you are afraid to speak up ?

Answer : No, we must be brave to speak up for our self.

3. When you are with people who talk with others easily , do you wish you were able to do that ?

Answer : Yes, we wish we were able to do that. Because, we can get a motivation and try to walk with other easly.

4. In what situations do you feel Shy and uncomfortable ?

Answer : we feel shy and uncomfortable if we do something wrong and we are in distressed situations.

UNIT 5

“CHILDHOOD DEPRESSION”

"Nobody likes me" is a common complaint in middle childhood, when

children tend to be popularity conscious. But when these words were

addressed to a school principal by an 8-year Old boy in Florida whose

classmate had accused him of stealing from the teacher's purse, it was a

danger signal. The boy vowed that he would never return to school and he

never did. Two days later, he hanged him self by a belt from the top rail of

his bunk bed.

Fortunately, depressed children rarely go to such lengths, though suicide

among young people is on the increase. How can we tell the difference

between a harmless period of the "blues" (which we all experience at times)

and a major affective disorder that is, a disorder of mood? The basic

symptoms of an affective disorder are similar from childhood, by some

features are age-specific 9dsm Ill-r, 1987).

Friendlessness is only one sign of childhood depression. This

disorder is also characterized by inability to have fun or to concentrate, and

by and absence of normal emotional reactions. Depressed children are

frequently tired, extremely active, or inactive. They walk very little, cry a

great deal, have trouble concentrating, sleep to much or too little, lose their

appetite, start doing poorly in school, look unhappy, complain of physical

ailments, feel overwhelmingly guilty, suffer severe separation anxiety

(which may take the form of the school phobia), or think often about death

or suicide. Any four or five of these symptoms may support a diagnosis of

depression, especially when they represent a marked change from the child's

usual pattern. Parents do not always recognize "minor" problems like sleep

disturbances, loss of appetite, and irritability as signs of depression, but

children themselves are often able to describe how they feel.

No one is sure of the exact cause of depression in children or adults.

There is some evidence for a biochemical predisposition, which may be

triggered by specific experiences. Depression school age-children are

children likely to lack social and academic competence, but it is not clear

whether incompetence causes depression or vice versa. The parents or

depressed children are more likely to be depressed themselves, suggesting a

possible genetic factor, a reflection of general stress in ill families, or the

result of poor parenting practices by disturbed parents.

Glossary

Complaint :keluhan

Address :menunjukkan

Accuse :menuduh

Stealing :mencuri

Vow :berjanji

Features :ciri-ciri

Suicide :bunuh diri

Appetite :nafsu makan

Ailments :penyakit

Trigger :menyebabkan

Vice versa :sebaliknya

Predisposition :kecenderungan

EXERCISE 1

1. What happens when 5-year old children say "No body likes me"?

Answer: they will come and tell to their parents

2. What happens when 10-year old children say "No body likes me"?

Answer: actually they will afraid to going to school to see their friends

3. What will the children do when they get depression?

Answer: the children will get stress and probably they will suicide them self

4. Why do the children get depression?

Answer: when they feel friendlessness because they got accused by their friends

5. When the children are accused by their friends, will they get depression?

Answer: yess they will cause deep inside their heart or their mentality wont accept it. they are just 5 years old

6. What is ( are) the symptom (s) of childhood depression?

7. What happens to the parents when their children get depression?

Answer: they try to help their child to give them a good advices

UNIT 7

THE FAMILY AND PERSONALITY

DEVELOPMENT

The family that Vicky and Jason grow up in is probably the largest single influence on their development. Were their births planned and welcome? How old were their parents? How well do the personalities of parents and child mesh? Are the parents healty? Are they wealthy or poor? How many people live at home? Influence travels in the other direction too. Children also effect their parent in untold ways, transforming parents day-to-day moods, priorities and plans for the future-even a marriage it self.

Family life for both Vicky and Jason is quite different from what it would have been a century ago, and family life is likely to change even more in the future. A child growing up today is likely to have only one sibling, a mother who works outside the home, and a father who is more involved in his children’s lives than his own father was; and to receive a considerable amount of daily care from non relatives, first in caregiver’s home or day care center and than at preschool. Today’s children have a 40 percent chance of spending part of their childhood with only one parent’s probably the mother and probably because of divorce.

These changes have revolutionized the study of socialization how children learn the behaviors their culture considers appropriate. In the past, most reseacrhes focused on mothers and their children, but now researches are studying the bounds between children and their fathers, their brothers and sisters, their grandparents, and other caregiver’s.

Another fascinating trend in research is the focus on the entire family. How does Ellen and Charles’ marital relationship affect the relationship that each spouse has with Vicky? Do Julia and Jess differently with Jason when either one is alone with him yielded provocative findings. For example, when both parents are parents and talking to each other, they pay less attention to their child. In some families, the spouses closeness to each other detract their ability to be close to their children; in others the parenting experience strengthens the marriage tie. By looking at the family as a unit, we get a fuller picture of the web relationships among family members.

Glossary

Mesh : menghubungkan

Moods : suasana hati

Personalities : kepribadian

Considerable : banyak/besar

Sibling : saudara

Non realtives : tidak ada hubungan kekerabatan

Caregiver : pengasuh anak

Preschool : masa sebelum sekolah

Childhood : masa anak-anak

Divorce : perceraian, bercerai

Attention : perhatian

Spouse : suami/istri

Detract : mengurangi

Socialization : pemasyarakatan

Behavior : tingkah laku

Tie : mengikat, ikatan

Influence : pengaruh

Probably : mungkin

Century : Abad

Appropriate : Sesuai/tepat

Involved : melibatkan

Researches : penelitian

Bounds : batas

Fascinating : menarik

Entire : keseluruhan

Yielded : menghasilkan

Among : diantara

Exercise 1

Answer the following question

1. 1. Is there any relationship between the family and personality development?

Answer: Yes there is. Because family is the first place to develop our personality.

2. What factors influence the children development?

Answer: Method of parents educate their children and children environment.

3. 3.What are the roles of parents for their children?

Answer: To give their children a good education and help to develop their children personality.

4. 4. What are the differences between the ancient and the recent family life?

Answer: The recent family life study of socialization how children learn the behaviors their culture considers appropriate. But, in the past most researches focused on mother, and their children, but now researches are studying the bounds between children and their father, their brothers and sisters, their grandparents, and other caregiver’s.

5. 5.Why can the spouses closeness lessen their ability to be close to children?

Answer: Because of when both parents are talking to each other, they pay less attention to their child. It may detract their ability to be close to their children. In others the parenting experience strengthens the marriage tie.